Talkin' about Change

I've had this blog for awhile and you see how faithful I've been to post! ha! Our lives are about to begin changing drastically, so I decided to start posting on the blog so I don't wake up when our children are headed to college and wonder where the time went.
The next two weeks are going to be crazy! Tim has to work 3 more days and gets 2 off and then works one more and has a week off. Those 2 days this week are already planned to the max (don't tell Tim ;) )because I want to enjoy vacation! We start homeschool in 2 weeks from today so I know I must have everything in order before then. If you know anything about me, you know I'm not an orderly sort of person, so I must make some personal changes to best serve my family. Not only that, I'm 18 weeks pregnant as of yesterday, and with the issues baby girl and I've been having, I've been worried that they will eventually put me on bedrest. Therefore, this non-orderly type girl has put in an phone call for the nesting fairy to stop by a little early this pregnancy. There is a BIG difference between the house being "come over for a play date" clean and "sure, you can help put away laundry" clean.
Speaking of laundry, call me overly sentimental, but I have saved every article of clothing the boys have ever worn since birth. I call myself overly sentimental because their closet is absurd. I FINALLY sorted through all of the clothing and still couldn't manage to purge anything under 12mos. I held the little overalls we bought for Bryson as a baby and just cried. I am way too hormonal right now...btw...I had left over chinese food this morning for breakfast. I don't even like Chinese food...
Anyways, I will sign off with one more note. I don't even like myself right now. I'm grouchy, irritable, emotional, flighty, and constantly tired, but I feel more blessed RIGHT now than I ever have in my life. I have a man that loves me (he bought me Cheez-its and hershey kisses Saturday night :D ) and two little boys that I adore even though it's been a "one of us isn't going to make it to your 4th birthday" type week with Brayden (paint in the carpet, salt poured in the kitchen floor, hi-lighter on his lips, etc). That child loves to "explore" and makes every day an adventure. With all of that being said, God has blessed me beyond all measure. I have a little girl resting under my heart, that shouldn't even be in existence according to the doctors, but God blessed me as her mother. I'm just glad that as unlovable as I am right now, that He still loves me and chooses to bless me despite my undeserving self.